I want you to be free as you can be. remember when you told me that when you were with me, you feel free and not needing to limit yourself?
after things happened, i observed that although maybe you still think that way, somehow you want to limit yourself when talking or when you are with me. maybe you want to make me feel that you are not comfortable when i am around or you really feel that way so you limit yourself. you don't have to do that you know. just tell me to back off, and i will. i would rather want to see you free from a far than be with you but seeing you strangled with consciousness.
just seeing you once in a while is enough for me and just seeing you ▬from a far or pass by you somewhere▬ is enough to make my day and make me smile and hold my breath again.
Hope to talk to you again in the future. still hoping that you would come back. i'm still here, where we spent some time together. it seems that i am already drilling a hole here
. it's ok, this gives a good feeling. Maybe some longing, sadness and loneliness sometimes but most of the time, it makes me smile and wishing that I could come back to those times and places again.